I am learning a lot about this journey as we strive closer to our goal. I find it amazing how this isn’t just a piece of land, or a house, or a dream, it’s a life choice that will not only change us but also hopefully change those around us.
A lot has happened in the past two weeks to drive us even closer to this goal. We are moving in May, period. Things may happen but we will figure it out, we always do, but we have to move in May. We can no longer live the life that we are living. It’s not healthy for me, for C, and definitely not for our kids. I do not want to raise my kids in the situation we are in now. They deserve better than this.
I am going to get religious here, and I’m sorry if I offend people but I feel this has to be said. I have spent too many years getting more and more frustrated with the way America is going. At bible study the other night we were watching a video, a woman was giving a sermon and in it she said that as Christians it was our duty to vote for the politicians that held up good Christian moral values, and as soon as she said it I laughed. I couldn’t stop myself. Those politicians don’t exist anymore. If we were to truly follow what she was saying nobody would vote for anyone. We are told as Christians that we are to worship no other God, and have no idols, but we do have idols. Money is our God. I hear time and time again from people that we are a Christian nation, well aside from the obvious religious freedom aspect of America, we will also NEVER be a Christian nation because we worship money. If you took any politician and gave him the choice between money and what is good for the people they would chose money hands down. That isn’t the world that I want to live in, nor is it the world I want my children to live in.
I absolutely love my church family, we are a small church, very close knit, and for the first time I feel like I am in a church family that strives to live by Jesus’s teachings, to love others as He loved us. I get so frustrated watching Christians today hide behind the mask of being Christian as a reason why they should get away with not following that command. It’s very hard for me to be in close relationship with people who think only of themselves and how they can gain from other people or situations. I want to scream, “It’s not about you”. Stop trying to manipulate situations to be in your best interest. Take a step back and look at the situation as a whole. How will your actions effect not only yourself but those around you. What consequences are going to come from this. Are other people going to be hurt in the process or just you? Stop putting your best interests in front of others, that is not the Christian way. That’s not the way of any religion. As much as it pains me, and as much as I have to swallow my pride time and time again, I would much rather do what is best for the greater good and take the hit myself than gain from my actions and watch others suffer. I couldn’t live with myself.
We don’t want to be a slave to money anymore. We don’t want to have to put money ahead of people, and i feel sad for those who do. Money is no God to have. It will only make you miserable.