I had lunch with a good friend today. It was really nice to sit and chat for a while, but it also reinforced my reasoning for doing the farm. It’s hard to remember these things when you look at your bank account and have somehow gone $200 over budget. Actually everything is hard when that happens. $200 is a lot and considering i’m not exactly sure where it went it tends to consume my life. We started out having $400 to put towards the excavating. We used about $150 of that on fuel for the excavator and $50 on the chickens, but other than that i have no clue where it has all gone. it’s all just stressful to me and it’s all that has been on my mind for the past week.
This lunch gave me a much needed break from that stress. it was nice to be able to sit with a friend and talk about what we want the end result to be. I know this process will be difficult and i know I’m going to continue to be stressed out like this but it’s the end result I need to keep looking at. It’s about how this project is going to end up helping people. We are going to start selling some of our produce this year, and having the chickens will help too. I just cant get my brain to shut down. I feel like there is so much more I could and should be doing.
*sigh* i need more lunches like that