I am somehow equally afraid of success as I am of failure. I am afraid that if I fail everything I believe about myself is true. I am afraid of success because it is an unknown. If I succeed I have no idea what my life will look like. The feeling is much like diving … Continue reading Of books and fears
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Becoming more self sufficient
Last year we were able to bring down our grocery bill to $100 a week. That is feeding 5-6 people 3 meals a day plus snacks. Last week I reached our next milestone of $80. It's in part to growing more food and a more diverse assortment of food this year. This is our meal … Continue reading Becoming more self sufficient
The cleanse: daaaaaay 4
It's not as bad as it was the last time I cleansed, because I already had mostly cut them out, but omg am I craving white bread and sugar. If I can get through the next 24-48 hours I'll be home free. Another issue you have to get used to is portion sizes. Whole Foods … Continue reading The cleanse: daaaaaay 4
The cleanse: day 3
Day 3 is much harder. I'm starting to hit the brick wall of "There is nothing I can eat that I want". Breakfast: 2 cheese and egg whole wheat breakfast burritos. Then I had to take my 5 year old to the doctors which ended up taking almost all day and of course I brought … Continue reading The cleanse: day 3
The cleanse: day 2
I started the day with a big breakfast (after almost cheating on the first day). I had a craving for a snack last night and almost grabbed a handful of Cs pirate booty. Instead I had some raisins. Today I am going to make Parmesan and butter popcorn to have to snack on when I … Continue reading The cleanse: day 2
The cleanse: day 1
I need to feel like I have more control over my life. I've been progressing into a downward spiral of depression and self doubt (which will be a later post). I have been telling C that once we get approved for food stamps I will start my 10 day cleanse. We have had them since … Continue reading The cleanse: day 1
Meal Planning Part Deux
I have had a request for a blog on my meal planning. Let me preface this by saying that I am FAR from being a type A personality. I have high anxiety which gives the perception that I'm a type A, but I'm not. I plan just enough to ease my anxiety, but I'm still … Continue reading Meal Planning Part Deux
Daydreaming and role models
I don't have much time during the day for things like daydreaming, so unfortunately I daydream at bad times, like when I am driving (which causes me to turn when I mean to go straight, oops), or when I am talking to people (which is really bad because my mom says I am not as … Continue reading Daydreaming and role models
Who needs the gym
I am not a workout person. I tried joining a gym when I was in college. I went once. I have been thinking about working out ..again? or at all? since having the baby. The thought of it makes me cringe though. Last night however, as I was working in the garden I came to … Continue reading Who needs the gym
Living as a Community
One of the most important things I find about the homesteading lifestyle is the importance of working together to help each other achieve your goals. I think in life we don't help each other enough, but as a homesteading community altruism is a much more desired trait. There is a lot more trading of goods … Continue reading Living as a Community